I'm currently reading "The Actor's Art and Craft" by William Espner. It's about The Meisner Technique (fucking brilliant) and it made me start to think a lot about what and who I am as an actor, and it made me question my techniques which is totally fine. That means I'm learning something, I gotta say I love it, I don't agree with everything the method has to offer but a lot is actually accurate.
I also read a few interesting articles about us actors, and what we keep forgetting, and It's so true I had to stop doing everything I was doing and just think for a moment.
It said something like "we can not forget to live in the moment and stop being actors for a second or our reality will be that we are actors at all time and that will make us bad actors. Because actors has to know what it's like to live in the moment so they can then portray it..." and that made me think... I need to stop doing what I'm doing and be human, stop practicing, but then I remembered I had read about alway practicing your craft... which made me very confused. So my solution is to try and find a balance.
How do you find a balance then? Tricky question. I think as long as you're not over doing it, you're doing it right. (honestly I'm still bit confused on what to think)
The thing is it made me realise I need to find myself again, I need to reconnect my past, the ground that I've built myself up on. So that's what I'm doing, and without even realising it. I just started 2 new projects that requires me as an actor to play myself Felix Martinsson (which is really fucking scary, and I totally understand why actors in the business say it's the scariest thing to do, because they have nothing to hide behind). But I feel like I'm on the right track, and that this could be the beginning of something new.
