CHASE

For ever thankful for the guy to the right (Michael - Director) who casted me in his film. It was such a great shoot, had a lot of fun and they were so friendly. I would work with him over and over again! August 10 2018! 

CASTING

 



I'm happy to report that I've been promoted to Jr.Casting Director. I just love this place, they've taught me A LOT, and I'm forever thankful. I really enjoy the casting process actually, both Extras casting and Principle. I hope I can balance acting with casting because right now I don't want to give up either. 

Anniversary

It's been months since I last updated this journal. I'm just too lazy to think of stuff to write even though I have a bunch of stuff on my mind. It's almost been a year since I moved to Los Angeles. Our 1 year anniversary is coming up, September 13 2018. It's crazy!!! Time is my biggest obstacle right now, it moves so quickly over here. 

A bunch of stuff have happened, I've been filming a lot, finished a Stalker scene, Chase, and a few student films. I feel like I never know what I'm doing, I don't really know who I am until I'm in the scene (still working on being in the moment, and letting myself be), even though I've been acting for years I feel like I'm starting over every time I start a new project or start prepping a new character. 
I get so heady, which is something I gotta accept and work with instead of working against. 

I'm officially done with school, and the Acting Certificate. It's been a tough year, testing my emotions, strength nerves and confidence. It's definitely been a roller coaster, lots of up and downs. This last quarter was tough, I've been feeling exhausted, like I could really need a vacation. I wanna just live for 2 weeks without thinking about acting. I gotta work on living, really living  here and now. I'm in my room writing this, next thing I know I'm in my head thinking "where will I be in 3 years, will I make it". It's interesting how our mind works (now I'm getting deep). I'm really excited for the future, once I clear my mind I feel like everything is gonna be fine. Something just tells me, I'm gonna make it. I just need to overcome my inner critic, shut him up and go with my impulses. So from now on I shall report on my progress. 

Oh and I'm counting hours (spent on acting, from August) 
Hours Spent: 600 / 10.000 

Update

So a lot have happened since I left Sweden this after the holidays. The anxiety has gone up and down and I've been contemplating if I'm ever enough. That's just my other thinking brain thinking... 

I'm taking the Meisner class which I enjoy very much. Our teacher is a legend, really knows what he's talking about and is good at communicating and explaining. I've learnt so much. 

My improv class is also very interesting, so difficult, but I learn a lot, and I really like our teacher there too. I think a lot of people misunderstand her, but she's speaking the truth. 

I've been doing really good in my english class, which gives me a little more confidence. Still need to work on that and let myself fail- baby steps.

I'm taking Yoga classes which is fucking amazing! 

I got an internship at a casting company, they're awesome. I didd my first reading with the actors yesterday and helped out slating and giving directions. I'm really lucky I found that place. Looking forward to grow with them and become better. 

I'm working on a experimental short film, finished shooting - just gotta edit it together and find the right music. 

I love Hollywood and LA so much. I really hope I can find a way to stay here and make America my country too.