Happy Weekend

 


I'm gonna try to enjoy the rest of my weekend now, meeting friends, last minute christmas shopping and some script reading (for the school application).

ALWAYS REMEMBER: "You got this Felix, keep fighting towards your goals and you'll get there - Whenever you feel like quitting remember why you started"

Resumé 2015

I just finished the last show of the season (The children's theater), and I feel really good about it. It's been exhausting but SUPER FUN! The time has gone by so fast, it's hard to comprehend. I'm looking at my resume right now and realise I've done more than it feels like. Both acting wise, directing wise and writing wise, which it pretty cool. 

Acting/theater:

- Sagogården

- SabelSara and the secret treasure

- The little ghost Godfrey

- Nassjo Against Cancer

- LasseMajas Detektivbyrå 

Acting/Film:

- Inga Lindström

Acting/YouTube:

- Smash

- Paperbag

- Behind the Mask

- A Friend

Directing Theater:

- Scooby-Doo the Hotel

- Shrek

- Sagogården

- SabelSara and the secret treasure

- The little ghost Godfrey

- Super Charlie and the Candy-monster

- LasseMajas Detektivbyrå

Writing: 

- Scooby-Doo the Hotel

- Shrek

- The little ghost Godfrey

- Super Charlie and the Candy-monster

- LasseMajas Detektivbyrå

- A magical night

- Nassjo Agains Cancer (1 skit)
(for the names like Shrek or scooby-doo - I've interpreted the already existent plays/Films, and used only the characters and made up a whole new story)

Looking at it like this, makes me question myself how I managed to do it and with a low salary... (I just love acting too much to care about money, I just wish I could keep doing this for the rest of my life and not have to think "will I survive this month"). I definitely feel like I've developed some new skills (but I can still learn more and get a lot better) and learnt a lot during this year. I'm really look forward to see what 2016 will bring to the table, hopefully a spot in the acting school I'm going to apply to or some bigger bigs. 

This is not all that I've done though, I've been to 3 auditions (that's not much, I want to go to a lot more) and I've recorded 5-7 audition tapes. Still feel like I could have done better in this game, but I live so far away from where they offer auditions, so I would have been broke if I'd gone to more auditions. 

Fingers crossed for 2016,

over and out! 

Russel Wilson quote

Found this a few weeks ago, and I just find this very accurate, and it fits almost every situation, especially in the acting industry! 

And if you didn't know this, I'm a huge fan of football (Seattle Seahawks) and Russel Wilson (the Quarterback) hi's a legend! 

Over and out! 

Can't relax

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas... (not really, even though it's frost and freezing outside, it's more like fall). I'm excited for Christmas, but I feel like I can't relax. I feel like I have so much left to do, but I can't do anything about it. I'm waiting to receive 2 books with monologues and scripts so I can pick  and prepare a monologue for the acting program I'm applying for next year(hopefully that shows up tomorrow or...). 

Working with teenagers that doesn't show respect and who isn't as serious as I am when it comes to acting, makes me so annoyed and stressed out, and with a show coming up next week I don't know what to do... I feel like it's been to much for me to deal with on my own, they're not showing up they don't know their lines (GOD I wish I could yell at them and tell them to step up their game, but I'm to tired and exhausted to deal with that as well). I'll do my best to make this a great ending to the season though, I know my character and lines, but with everything happening, I'm not gonna lie I get affected. I alos work extra as an supply teacher, really enjoy that so hopefully I can continue doing that as well.

I'm just gonna put this out there, I think I'm depressed... My mood is like a rollercoaster and I'm tired all the time, sometimes I just want to cry, and I feel like I'm not doing enough. I need someone to  tell me "you can do this, that'll help you get into the business", but I know that won't happen, so I procrastinate, which makes me feel anxious. I'm all over the place, and I can't talk to anyone because everyone have their own problems to deal with... I just wish I got lucky and booked a really big acting gig, and could work for hours and hours on set and stay happy for the rest of my life, but it's never that easy. 

I pray to god I'll get accepted to the acting school, so I can get my life back on track, and one step closer to my goal of becoming a full-time actor. 
I just had to get things out there, and that's why I started this blog in the beginning, to share what's on my mind and share my acting experience. 

only 11 days left to Christmas! 

P.s forgot to update the blog after the big show last month, so here  are some pictures from the show, we raised almost 400K sek to the breast cancer fond which is unbelievable!!