The short story about Felix

This is a short story about a young man in his early twenties (21 to be exact). His name is Felix, which mean happy and lucky. Unfortunately he isn't that very lucky nor happy. If he was lucky, he’d won a million dollars last time he bought that lottery ticket, he also would've had parents that supported his career choice and didn't tell him: “You will get kidnapped, tortured maybe even killed!” every time he left the nest to go to an audition (They might be serial killers or people working with trafficking. I’m talking about the casting directors), because they know that’ll worry him and maybe make him stay at home instead of going to that audition. Which then would lead to him not becoming an actor. And Felix would be happy if someone just gave him a chance of proving he is an actor about to bloom and become something big. He would also be really happy if people could treat him with the same respect he does, and not act as if he is just some outcast (just because he happens to live in Nässjö, Småland and not in the big cities). Other than trying to stand up for his name, Felix likes to read books, watch movies, go to the gym and hang out with friends. But that’s when he’s not busy working on a new short film or monologue to tape and upload to YouTube to stay involved in the business. As this might come as a shock (referring to that gloomy story I just told you, if that’s how you thought of it), Felix can actually be funny, very polite, lion-hearted and easy to work with.

Just give him a call (+46 722225533), or send him an email (felixmartinsson@hotmail.com) and he will answer you anytime, in fact he is waiting by his phone right at this very moment, (most young adults are).

Work

My life consists of lots of writing, thinking and planning at the moment. Currently trying to figure out how to get my acting resume in paper form (on one paper) to a casting director in Stockholm. Some how my email decide not to send my documents, which makes this very hard (it's like old times). 
I'm also planning my trip to Birmingham, and trying to create a new more professional website (I swear it's so hard to understand how it works, you need a platform, domain name, theme and so on). Let's just say I work a lot, and do I get paid? Nope. Sometimes you gotta work for what you believe in and do it for free, if you're lucky (hopefully I am) you will get it back in the near future.

Reading out loud

I woke up feeling extremely creative, craving something to read out loud. What's better than a monologue? And let me tell you I fell in love with this monologue, I'll probably read it on my next audition (even though most casting directors/agents prefer famous pieces). It's a monologue that demands aggressiveness and cleverness, something I feel comfortable being (almost like a psycho person). 


I've booked my tickets to Birmingham, so I'm leaving on Monday. Finally some change of environment, and seeing my friend, and her new friends. I'm excited, I'm just hoping everything turns out good because I can't understand all the numbers and codes on my E-ticket (stresses me out a little), but I'm sure It'll be fine. Gonna read books, listen to music and making sure all my emails to the casting directors gets done. 

Becoming the Psychopath

This is pretty much what I'm doing right now. I'm putting myself in awkward situations to investigate how I as a person react. I'm also currently locking myself inside to trigger the inner psychopath ('cause If you know me, you know that I'm not good at sitting still nor be quiet, being trapped with myself helps a lot), which emotions I want to have full control over when I need to use them in my work.

This is all very interesting, and I F***** love this about the job. I've learnt so much and I'm ready use it in practice.

Restless -- Irritable -- Tired -- Mad -- (Psychopath released) This is how I manage to work with my inner psychopath, you gotta trigger him, doing this exact pattern to release him.

Explanation: As soon as I enter my room, close the door and make myself stay inside there for hours, I get restless, this trigger irritation which then contributes to tiredness (thinking to much of what you could do outside of this room) which then leads to breakdown. This is where I become the psychopath. [always remembering these feelings makes me become him anytime I need.]  

This is the result of a very lost, frustrated and mad psychopath.

Overwhelming

It's the third time in only a month I've felt overwhelmed and thankful for what I've accomplished with YouTube. The Psycho Monologue is by far the most liked video I've uploaded. I never thought It would make people feel the way they do or want to perform it them self, it makes me so happy as an artist and actor to hear that. And that's exactly what I work so hard for, I want people to feel something when they watch me perform, and I want people to get involved like they do in the comments (Thank you so much!) 
 Reading the comments makes me smile for hours afterwards, and I can't stop thinking about them. YouTube is such a good network for me, as I'm still working on the breakthrough. It gives me the opportunity to show my work and what I can do and create with a piece of paper, a few hours of thinking and camera (and ofc the audience). I feel like I'm almost there now, this is enough attention for me to continue doing what I love, which is expressing myself through acting. 

Watch it here -->

New resume photos!

I've never felt so ready for anything, I'm ready to sell my body, mind and soul to acting and storytelling (Not selling my body as in sex) as long as it helps the story we are telling, I'm willing to do what I have to do!! Hollywood?? Why can't you see me? I don't want to sound desperate, but that's really how I feel. I can't see me doing anything else but working as an actor, creating and being other people! 

I'm gonna book a train to Stockholm this weekend and visit a few agencies and casting directors, so today was all about getting those new and fresh resume photos done, which I think I managed pretty well. But I'm looking forward to the real photo shoot I've booked!

Go check out my IMDb page and tell me if you think I chose right photo --->

Bedtime 2 is now out!!

Remember I shared the trailer 3 weeks ago?? Here is the full length movie (well, short movie) It's 25 minutes long. If you decide to watch it, you must watch it till the end, or you won't understand shit! It's a bit slow in the beginning, but it fastens up towards the middle. It's a drama/thriller. I really hope you like it!