söndag 7 december 2014

December 7

New selfie every day until Christmas







































Today was my first day off in two weeks. Let's just say I felt a bit tired and a bit not like myself. Been watching Vampire Diaries, and The Maze Runner, (The Maze Runner was epic, Loved it!) and played games on my phone all day! Oh, I actually cleaned the dishes and decorated our Christmas tree as well, so I've done my chores. 
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I went through my watch list on IMDb and happened to stumble across "Warcraft", and it's now official, It's coming out March 2016. I can not describe how excited I am!!! I would do anything to have a role in that movie!! Legendary, if you see this: "give me a chance to prove to you, that you need me as a cast member." 

There are plenty of cool stuff out now, if you're a nerd like me, I just love the art and story behind Warcraft, it's phenomenal! 















torsdag 4 december 2014

BEDTIME 2



Here you go!! The official trailer for Bedtime 2!!!!! I'm so excited, It will premier on Christmas eve, only on YouTube! God Bless! 

December 4, 5 & 6

New selfie every day until Christmas







































Since (as usually) I have to work double shifts this weekend, I won't have time to update my blog. I'll work 14 hours straight tomorrow and same is for Saturday... (think MONEY!!) We have lot's of reservations, and I mean lots... thinking about it makes me exhausted, so I'm not gonna, because then I might get a panic attack (anxiety) and I'm not up for that. 
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I'm just gonna relax, watch a movie and the latest episode of "Gotham" and then go to bed early. I might actually read a chapter in "The husband's secret", but we'll see about that! 
Looking forward to my day off on Sunday, I'm going to visit my sister in her new apartment and have a coffee together with her, my granny and mother. 

onsdag 3 december 2014

December 3 - Oh Deer

New selfie every day until Christmas 







































Feeling very Christmassy right now. Bought myself a Xmas jumper, from H&M, and It's really comfortable. 
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So, an update on Bedtime 2 right? Did I edit anything yesterday? NOPE, as usually something else turned up. So I'm aiming for this Sunday (If I don't have to work at the restaurant...). Anyway, I've named all the clips, so I know which one comes first and so on. So It won't take that many days to finish it up. The premier will be on YouTube this Christmas Eve!! So excited!

If you want something to pass time in, I recommend you to download the new Star Wars game app on iTunes, it's really good. Or if you like to watch people do their thing, watch all the YouTubers vlogmas videos, they're awesome! 



Here is a little something for you, some behind the scene footage from my short film Lockerhole. Enjoy and laugh out loud! 

tisdag 2 december 2014

December 2

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New selfie every day until Christmas







































Not working double shifts today!! Finally a evening off. Gonna read "The husbands secret" and I might read a chapter in "Girl Online" by Zoe Sugg (because I've finally got her book). 
I think I should do some editing as well, I gotta use the time I have, (even though I really would like to go to the gym and workout). 
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So that's what I've planned for today, we'll see how much of it I manage to actually do. I just had a cup of coffee and am about to get dressed and get ready for work, so if I find anything of value I'll write about it later, but there is really not much going on right now. It's that "Normal" thing going on, (which I HATE), gotta find another role and project to work on! 

måndag 1 december 2014

Urbanears for Xmas







































I bought my self a new pair of in-ear headphones by Urbanears and I FUCKING love them, the design is awesome and the sound is freaking amazing. (I bought these for the money I earned for my role in The Blood of Alia, makes it even more awesome and valuable) 
If you don't know what you want for Xmas, put this in on your list (if you have one) or buy them as a Xmas present and give them to your mom/dad, and they will look cool and up to date! 



December 1

One selfie every day until Christmas






































Good morning and Happy December 1 (only 24 days left until Xmas)! I'm feeling very tired today, since I had to work a double shift yesterday and people just kept coming, we never had a break, (my brain feels fried). 
It's December 1, which means only 31 days left before I quit at the restaurant. I'm so excited, and I got my co-workers back, they believe in me, (I just wish my family did as well. I hate it, that the see it as some kind of joke, as if it's not a real job). I've been feeling like shit these two couple of days and I think It's because I work to much and combine that with all the stress that comes with not knowing how my futures will turn out, and the fact that I won't have much money next year. Hopefully I find peace this January! 

"Pray for what you wish for and work for what you need"(Yesterdays fortune cookie, and I couldn't agree more!!) 










<<< Xmas Movies >>>










Here's a list of movies I made on IMDb (I love that about IMDb), the best Xmas movies to watch in order to get in the right spirit! Every day until Christmas I'll give you something here on my blog! 
So make sure you read it! 

lördag 29 november 2014

BEDTIME 2







































It's been a long process, and It still need some work to be done, but I'm working on it. And hopefully I'll be able to release it on Christmas eve! That would be really nice, but we'll see. So stay tuned. It's on IMDb, so you could check it out there, and if you want to see a sneak peek, then you can find some footage in my show reel which I have on YouTube. 
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I'm about to start re-edit it now since I have some time before I go to work. I just don't like to begin a project knowing that I only have a few hours before I have to go, that stresses me out. I also have to make something for dinner and fix my hair before I start my shift at the restaurant (always 10000 things to do). 



Get inspired - Johnny Depp




























Again, work from yourself, and find the character inside you. It's the most important tip I've ever learnt, and it's been very useful if I put it that way.

fredag 28 november 2014

Being an actor is like running a business


































Good morning! Jet another Friday is waiting for me... UGH! 
I read a very good and inspirational article on Cast It Talent's website(which is a phenomenal platform for actors btw) and today's article was about: "Being an actor is like running a business. You are the CEO, and are in charge of building and growing your company and brand." This is pretty much what I'm doing right now. Trying to make my brand seen, and recognized. The thing I learnt from this article is, you don't need people to represent you, you can work yourself up on the top alone. It's when you've get that first high budget gig, that's when you should really start looking for representation, an agent, a publicist and so on. I feel I could really use it, but it's not necessary as long as I understand what's going on myself. I like being the actor who's hunting for auditions. It's just I wish I could get the roles I'm auditioning for, but as long as I live in this small town, that won't happen. They don't cast actors like me, from outside the big cities (That my friends is the true story of auditioning in Sweden).   

If you want to read the article click here...
  

torsdag 27 november 2014

Happy Thanksgiving







































I wish I could take credit for this photo, but It's not taken by me. I found it on Tumblr. I just found it very beautiful and this is where I would like to celebrate my Christmas, New York City! 
Speaking about NYC, Americans are so so so nice and polite. Last Saturday and this Monday I served and took orders from one of our local basketball team players parents (from Georgia). And They were so nice. This Tuesday I went to see the game, and his parents recognized me among everyone in the audience and said "Heey you". That made me really happy, often people see me as just a waiter so if they meet me outside the restaurant they look away. I just don't like it, it's so typical Swedish!! I just know America is the right place for me, and I want to raise my kids and have a family there, and of course it's the place where there's lots of opportunities for me as an actor (which makes me even more certain)! 

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! Eat good food, and watch a lot of football! I'm very thankful for what I've accomplished as an actor so far, I just need to work harder. 

tisdag 25 november 2014

Work, Gym and Basketball






























Basically my morning in a nutshell! Drinking coffee and using my iPad. This just took off, I don't even know what I've done other than work, gym and watching the our towns basketball game. So There is really not much to say, I'm gonna start working on another monologue tomorrow or maybe I'll wait until Thursday, because I feel like my head need to rest a little. 
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Gonna Skype with Annabelle now that we both have time(Which usually never happens, and she is coming home december 16)! 

söndag 23 november 2014

Anxiety







































I love this quote and I couldn't have said it better myself!

Even though I find it hard to stay calm when I'm not on set (I feel like I need to be creative all the time, and be on stage and on set all the time).I get anxiety attacks when I'm in a relaxed state and I'm not doing anything acting related. Anxiety is a very stressful disease. I can't really describe it. It's like your mind and body just shuts down, you feel sick, you over think everything. 

Writing about it here feels easier than talking about it is. I don't even think my friends know, because last time I told someone about it, it was almost like they didn't believe me, like they thought I was telling them because I needed attention. So I guess that's why I don't like talking about it. But I think it would be easier for people to understand me, and why I sometimes don't want to talk or hang out because I feel like shit. This happens to me every time I finish a project, (acting related) because I'm so happy while I'm doing it. Then it just disappears. It's like someone sucked all the happiness out of you, like you got dumped by your girl friend etc. (This is also why I know this is the right profession for me) I just gotta find an agent so I can put an end to this, I need to be on stage or on set to be able to "cure" this. 

Let's Celebrate







































As I woke up today finding out that we have reached 1 K views on The Psycho Monologue!!! YAY!! This is really nice, I'm really happy! Thank you to everyone who have watched it!! keep shearing it. 

THE PSYCHO MONOLOGUE...

My weekend in a nutshell:
As usually I had to work overtime and double shifts, but my two days in hell is now over for this week, so that's a good thing. Just 5 days until next time.... 25 hours of work in only 2 days, let's say my head ache!! It's only a month left before I finally quit and begin my adventures, SO excited I can't even be mad.
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Today I've done nothing but watched YouTube and Ellen DeGeneres, and I F**** LOVE her so much I mean... She is phenomenal on what she is doing and her show is F*** EPIC! I would really like to go see her live one day, hopefully even be on her show. That would be awesome! 


torsdag 20 november 2014

I'm taking the evening off

As a reward for all the hard work and effort I've put into this audition, I'll take the evening off and enjoy my self. I Just finished a hard ass workout at the gym and made a vanilla-banana-coconut protein shake. Operation building muscles and being health CHECK! 
Now time for some episodes of "The Originals" and then I'm thinking of watching "As Above, So Below" (which seems very good if you read about it) So there you go, as lazy as it gets, tomorrow is the first day in hell (again) and just thinking about it makes me wanna disappear under the ground, PFTT!! 

Btw did you know I have Facebook page? If not, then make sure to like it (if you want to support what I''m doing of course). Yesterday I posted a little sneak peek video from the audition, go watch it! 
Felix Martinsson Facebook page...

onsdag 19 november 2014

Filming my audition video

























This is how B it looks like when you don't have the money to do it properly. If I had an agent I could get help from him/her, and I could use their building to film in, now I have to do it in my room. And I din't have anyone that could help me, so I had to do it myself. But It actually went okay, better than I expected. Now Keep your fingers crossed, and lets hope they see something in me. I really want the feedback from the panel, that would mean the world to me. It's so important to get feedback, so you can take it even further and develop. 

Goodbye Tom, I'll leave you for now, and I'll move on to another character, It was great working with you. (I'm just kidding, in case you think I'm some kind of psychopath) 

Acting, Felix Martinsson

Felix Martinsson auditioning as Tom






















I just thought it could be fun for you to to see the before and after pictures. Imagine if they new I was filming in my room. Look how B it looks in the first picture, then look at picture number 2 (that's what they see) Thank god for technology we have today!

tisdag 18 november 2014

Jennifer Lawrence



























I remember watching her in "Winter's bone" (2010, already 5 years ago, well almost.) for the first time, and I thought, "This girl is gonna rock the acting business" and I've never been more right in my entire life. Jennifer is absolutely amazing! I feel like I were there to witness her bloom out and have her breakout because back then she wasn't that famous. Now she is the most wanted girl in the business alongside with Emma Watson (who is amazing as well). This is a person to study carefully, and learn a lot from, just watch the interviews with her! (She is so freaking HOT!!)

Busy year 2015









































I'm starting to see how much I'm missing as I work as a waiter, things I really should be doing instead of being at the restaurant hours and hours...When I quit:  I can start applying for more acting jobs and email agency's to book appointments. Because that requires time and availability which I don't have now! 


Anyway, my plan for January is to go to Stockholm two weeks to visit my friend and meet two casting directors that I've been speaking with. Then I'll take a flight to London to visit my friend there, and maybe visit a school I found interest in. And after that I have 2 month to study, and prepare for America. So 2015 will be a pretty busy year for me. A year where I will live very dangerous, because I don't have a full time (payed) job. This will be interesting, and I kind of looking forward to it. I just have to have a plan B (if this won't work). 

Come back tomorrow to read my blog, and I'll take you behind the scene when I film my audition tape.






<<<  fond this very funny, anyone else?

måndag 17 november 2014

My life is a puzzle

Everything is finally starting to fall on its place. Tom is pretty much me (both inner and outer character), and the monologue feel more natural now that I know exactly where it comes from. So that's good. It's scheduled to be shot this Wednesday, which means I have 2 more days to make it perfect. What a great Monday! I've had 2 cups of coffee, so I might need to run a few miles to get tired before I go to bed.  
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Oh, I also found a voice over contest which I of course will participate in. So after I've finished the audition tape on Wednesday I'll begin reading a new monologue (And my boss thinks I should feel rested because I'm not working at the restaurant...) I work all day... every day to make things go as planned so each piece of puzzle can fit.

söndag 16 november 2014

I'm right here






























Been working on my promoting skills this evening(instead of watching movies as I really wanted), and that's  thing I found the most difficult, and it's so boring... But it's something I really have to do to be able to grow an audience and make my self seen. 
I'm gonna take a brake now and watch some YouTube before I start reading the monologue again. 

Relaxing Sunday

It's been a very slow Sunday, and I'm very thankful for that!Usually my days feels like 1-3 hours only. I got to meet my dad and brother (and the rest of the family of course) and it was really nice and relaxing. I was supposed to go to the gym, but I didn't really feel like it, so I decided to watch a movie instead. And I'm happy with that choice 'cause it was a great one. "Before I Go to Sleep" with Nicole Kidman, Colin Firth and Mark Strong, brilliant cast and story! A thrilling thriller, kept me awake throughout the whole movie. My rating: [F][F][F][F]
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I really feel like watching another movie, (or at least the latest episode of The Originals and Vampire Diaries). And I feel very Christmassy, so maybe a good Christmas movie. This is not like me, I usually don't look forward to Christmas but I actually do this year. Hmm, this is strange, maybe it's Tom and not me!? (Joking)

I've also had time to do some monologue reading, and character work. But a tip, do not work while you're driving (or at least not if you're a guy). I really can't do two things at the same time, SHIT! I don't even know what happened, but for some reason I couldn't focus, which made me frustrated, so it made my driving terrible. "don't work and drive" 

If you want to see pictures and other stuff that I'm up to, go add me on Snapchat (Tacooz), where I try to make a little story everyday!



lördag 15 november 2014

The Psycho Monologue - Felix Martinsson




I just realized it has already been a year since I made "The Psycho Monologue", time really flies! And it came out on this very date November 15, 2014! It's the first monologue I've written and performed in English. It's also the monologue that got me cast in "The Blood of Alia" my first role in a feature (coming out 2015). And since last month, it's getting 5-10 views per day. ¨

This video will be used in my upcoming project "The Diary of a Psycho Person" (The script is in progress), which will be about Collin and the life he lives after this video. Stay tuned! 

Go check it out if you haven't already! 


Title: The Psycho Monologue
About:Collin D Jr. is found guilty of murdering 8 people, one of many sick psychopaths who gets inspiration from horror and thriller movies. The investigation is in full speed, and so is the interrogation with Collin, and he has a lot to say.
Length: 4.20 min



This says it all - Robert Downey Jr.



500 Days of Summer







































I was supposed to begin my shift at 6 pm tonight (And had planned to work on my character and monologue), but guess who started 6 ours early? Yep, that's me. And because I worked very late last night, and then came home to more work, I'm pretty exhausted and upset right now. It's very hard to smile and be nice to people, and all these cheeky guest makes me sick to my stomach. AHHHH!! 

Now that I've got that out of me, let's talk about my monologue. 

So I finally picked a monologue. It's a monologue from the film "500 Days of Summer", and it's the scene where Tom is at a meeting in his company. All the greeting card writers have to present new ideas they've come up with for new greeting cards. At this time in his life, he has lost the chance on the one girl he fell in love with and became depressed, he is also very tired of his job. After hearing a co-worker present her greeting card Idea, he decides to let some things on his mind out. (That's where the monologue begins) 
I think this is a really good monologue, and I hope the panel sees my interpretation, and why I choose this one. Because it has a very important meaning to it and that's what I want to bring up. 

As much as I would like to rest, and take a nap, I have to analyze my character and read the monologue. Because I have to shoot the scene next week. So what's better than to get some energy from all the caffeine in the coffee? Always think positively. "Every cloud has a silver lining" right? and "you can sleep when you're dead"

torsdag 13 november 2014

Support

Support is a very valuable thing, I've been lucky to have such a supporting family. Especially my grand parents. My old granny, once said; "I believe in you, you can do it" then she quickly added "win an Oscar before I die, will you, so I can be part of that moment in your life" I love her very much. And I would very much like to do it for her, but that's easier said than done. I'm not really there yet, but hopefully one day, and then I can dedicate my speech to her. 

I wish I had more friends in the business, so we could support each other and talk about things related to acting. Because I can't really talk to anyone about this, because they don't understand me, when I say I have a block, to be emotional in front of people. Cry on cue is easier said than done. I'm working really hard to break that block, and hopefully I will. It's just if I knew other actors we could talk about this. But for now, I guess I can use this blog to bring these kind of thought up. 


Today I've looked through my monologues, and I finally found one that I liked, but It turns out it's just a monologue, not a piece of work from a play or a movie, which it has to be, If I'm gonna submit the audition tape. So now I have to start looking again. I guess, things are not really meant to be easy, EVER. 

onsdag 12 november 2014

Such a busy day - late night































Wow, it's been such a busy day. I've been sitting in front of my laptop most of the day, trying to find the perfect monologue for my audition tape which I have until the end of November to record and submit. But still, I have lots of work to do, and since I work hours at the restaurant I only have a few to focus on my character and monologue. And I haven't even picked one yet. So I have plenty to do, but for now, I just wanna go to bed and watch some YouTube before I go to sleep. So that, I will do! 
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Oh I forgot to tell you about the project, so "Cast It Talent" has this thing going on where they ask  actors to submit audition tapes of them self, doing a scene from a play or a film in order to win the showcase of the month, which means you get feedback from a panel of professionals, and the top 1 wins 500 dollars, which is AWESOME. And this month winner was a guy from Sweden, so It made me want to do it as well, I didn't even know they did this until I saw the text "Sweden..... bla blabal.", so I went; YES, this is something for me! 

Anyway, I'm gonna put myself to bed now, and try to pick the right monologue, and then finally watch some YouTube. 

The Hillywood Show - The Walking Dead parody




I've always watched Hilly and Hannah's parodies, and they are so so so so so good. They think of every little detail, and I'm always like: WOW!! after watching anything by them. They put so much effort into their projects, and then they share it with us. I kind of feel like we could become a great team, if we teamed up. Watch there latest parody - The Walking Dead, and don't forget to watch the behind the scene footage, It's really cool to see how they work, and you learn a lot, so grab a pen and a paper and study!




Characterizing


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Okay, so this is the part I LOVE about this profession, "I'm interested in what it would be like to be you" as Meryl Streep said. There are so many different and interesting characters out there, and I get to become them for as long as I need or for as long as the camera is rolling and we're telling a story, (or as long as I'm on a stage in front of an audience). I fucking love it, it gives me goosebumps just writing about it.
Characterizing is what makes most people misunderstand/freak out about this profession, because they feel it's a bit fuzzy. This is also the part where the actor does most of his job, preparing, reading, thinking and creating. Have you and your friends ever seen a interview with an actor talking about his character. I have, and none of my friends are really in to acting, so they doesn't really understand the art of it, I remember someone said, "it's like they are schizophrenic, it's weird". For me it's normal, because I'm used to it, and I've done it a lot (because It's a big part of the profession). But we are all different,  and I'm excepting that everyone can not understand nor become an actor, all the professions out there doesn't fit everyone. I mean I could never become a doctor. (actually I can, maybe I get to play a character who is a doctor. That's another thing I like about this profession but I won't write about that now.)

There are plenty of different techniques, and everyone has his own way of becoming the character. Some famous actors prefer not to tell anyone about their techniques. And I (almost) feel the same way, I feel it's very personal, and my technique might not even work for you. But there is one thing that I've learnt and can tell you, and you'll hear it from other actors as well: Always work from yourself.

tisdag 11 november 2014

How to use your time

I read an article about young actors such as myself, and the struggle they have to figure out how to use their time, and work on their preparations for the job. This is something I've always struggled with, but finally figured a solution. My problem now is, that I don't have much time. So I work, and come home working even more (which makes this a full time job, actually more than a full time job). The important thing is; as long as you can go to bed feeling you've done something to improve your work, that's enough. But If you go to bed feeling you haven't done anything, it's not enough! It's simple. 
If you feel like watching TV or a movie, that could be enough. You learn plenty of stuff by watching other people. In fact that's a great idea, analyzing people will improve your skills when it comes to characterizing, which is a big part of your job. Learn about us, and get to know yourself, that's the perfect way to spend your afternoon. It will help you when you're trying to find the character you are portraying within yourself. 

   

Try not to give a shit







































This is the most true quote I've read in a while. I sometimes find this hard, because I feel the need to always have peace around me, and want to be liked by everyone, But I'm really trying not to give a shit about the negative things I hear from people. I know what I have to do, to be able to reach my goal, and have a successful career.

måndag 10 november 2014

Late night work






























This image clarifies exactly what I'm up to. So I'm not gonna write much, I'll just let the image speak for itself. This is pretty much what I do every night, going through my blog, reading tweets on twitter, doing some work on my monologue, and checking out the latest news on IMDb. 
I kind of wanna start writing the new script, which will be called "The Diary of a Psycho Person", and yes I'll connect it to "The psycho monologue" which btw has reached over 900 views on YouTube today! When we reach 1.000 we must celebrate!!  

Back at it







































I've almost finished reading Macbeth by William Shakespeare. It's actually a very good story, and Macbeth is an interesting character, I can see myself portray. 

So I've done that, but I've also looked on the latest Casting Notices, and there are a few interesting ones I really want to apply to, but I'm too scared because I feel like i need to master my accent first. I don't want them to be like; "Oh, you talk very mixed, could you fix that?" then I'd feel pressured, so I really gotta work on my american accent first. This is what makes me so sad, why wasn't I born in AMERICA?? Everything would have been so much easier. They cast the most interesting roles there, the villains... Sweden only focus on the drama genre, and there are rarely any villains involved.  

Also I just learned there are plenty of more voice types than I thought. So I have to educate myself and learn them, if someone ever ask me to do a nasal voice, I'll be like: a what? (Even though I actually know this voice, It's like you're speaking with a stuffy nose) So I have a few things to work on from now on, starting right now! Gotta move to america, since; "the most important technique to improving your accent is to surround yourself around native English speakers and continuously receive feedback from them" Another thing to add on the list of things I have to do before I can begin my career. Or should I just stop over think everything and just do it anyway, maybe I should... hmm, so may options.   

Intense day yesterday

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Today was very slow, almost no costumers at the restaurant, and on top of that headache and dizziness. Not my type of Monday! Yesterday was very intense, fathers day, a lot of reservations and a sleepless night. I guess that's the reason why I felt this way today. 


But yesterday evening wasn't that bad, me, my sister and mom wen to see Interstellar, which was absolutely phenomenal, I loved everything about it. But what could have gone wrong when Christopher Nolan is the director of the movie. If you haven't seen it yet, go watch it. It's so well made and the performances by the actors were so well executed. It's definitely gonna be nominated for an Academy Award 2015, if not then I don't know what will. 


























Matthew Mcconaug as Cooper. I wish I could meet him and talk about acting I think I could learn plenty, because he knows what he's doing! 

lördag 8 november 2014

Hotel: Brag & Blaring

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I just couldn't help my self, I went through some old calender notes, and found my rehearsal schedule for this production. I remember last November this was the only thing on my mind. It was so intense, and I pretty much lived this musical, And it's such a good memory. As you already know, I love doing this so much, and this was the time I've felt the most happiest, because I got to work with this for almost 7 month. And since this blog is about an actor's life, I felt the need to share this experience with you!




Here's a clip from the production, where I play Dregen. (It's in Swedish)

Coffee with mom







































Just got home from work, same as yesterday. My mother made a cup of coffee which I enjoy very much, makes me think about acting. Coffee and acting make such good couple. You know script reading, writing, taking a sip of coffee, more reading and writing. Such a small thing, makes me enjoy life even more.

It's already dark outside, which is the only thing I like about the winter season. I like it when it's dark,  I guess I'm  a night person, I get so creative when it's dark around me, and I get to light candles. I guess it's also because I trick my brain to think today's almost over, and I get to go home (work related).  
I feel more relaxed when it's dark outside, my brain just opens up and wants to create stuff. I like writing and reading when it's dark, I find it difficult to focus on that when I'm at home and it's light outside. I mean if I go to an auditions it's fine, but it's something about being at home when it's light makes me so stressful. 

I think this has to do with my previous work hours, because I was always free from work on the days and had to go to work on the evening. So I couldn't relax on the days, because my brain was only thinking; "Almost time to go to work", you know, I counted the hours I had left to do something on. Which lead to anxiety, I thought; I have so many things I'd like to do before I go to work, but I don't have time to do them. So I didn't do anything of value in the daytime. Hopefully when I quit at the restaurant once and for all (NO more restaurant jobs), at the end of December. I can start over and maybe enjoy the days more. 

Yet another down talk, I didn't really think about it! I'll have to work on that. Lol! 
Anyway fathers day tomorrow, and what's better than to give a gift card to the movies, to your father? 



Btw my idea for Saturday blog posts is to post inspirational quotes by actors. I found some really good ones, so make sure to read my blog at least every Saturday, and they will inspire you to keep working, and working even harder on your breakthrough!   

Inspirational quotes - Ian McKellen






















I choose to define my self as an actor even though I've earned more as a waiter, It's just I don't see my self waiting tables for the rest of my life. I'm an aspiring actor, trying to breakthrough. I love the art we can create together in front of an audience whether it is live on stage or in front of a camera. With my acting I want people to feel something, anything that's my aim, to be truthful to my character. An actor has to learn how other people are thinking, feeling and acting under specific circumstances, and then consciously portray it in characters.


If I ever get the chance to choose a character I'm drawn to the bad guy. The villain is close to my heart, not because I am a bad guy, but because I am not! 

// Felix