Anxiety

I love this quote and I couldn't have said it better myself!

Even though I find it hard to stay calm when I'm not on set (I feel like I need to be creative all the time, and be on stage and on set all the time).I get anxiety attacks when I'm in a relaxed state and I'm not doing anything acting related. Anxiety is a very stressful disease. I can't really describe it. It's like your mind and body just shuts down, you feel sick, you over think everything. 
Writing about it here feels easier than talking about it is. I don't even think my friends know, because last time I told someone about it, it was almost like they didn't believe me, like they thought I was telling them because I needed attention. So I guess that's why I don't like talking about it. But I think it would be easier for people to understand me, and why I sometimes don't want to talk or hang out because I feel like shit. This happens to me every time I finish a project, (acting related) because I'm so happy while I'm doing it. Then it just disappears. It's like someone sucked all the happiness out of you, like you got dumped by your girl friend etc. (This is also why I know this is the right profession for me) I just gotta find an agent so I can put an end to this, I need to be on stage or on set to be able to "cure" this.